1.8.3

an interesting cyber-wrinkle:

Slashdot | Prentice Hall To Publish Open Content Licensed Books
"The 'Bruce Perens' Open Source Series' will be available first as hardcopy in bookstores, and the Open Source text will be available electronically a few months later."

what this means to me is that if you're willing to wait, you can print it and read it: print selectively, ie focus on yr interests. also a lot of dead trees i guess.

1.6.3

i painted this watercolor last fall at my father's house in arizona..

met some new friends i hope to see more of at the friend's meeting yesterday.

also tuned 2 string chinese fiddle finally, a project i've been working on for weeks. maybe tuning is not the right word, because i also used tape to mark the first octive D scale. hard task for the tone-deaf.

no fret board. in fact no board of any kind. you change notes by touching the strings. i also gathered all the MP3s i have done the last 12 months and archived onto zip drives. starting from scratch, learning mainly opcode studiovision pro, i've done 21. next step is to do 3-5 minute songs that are actually music of some sort.

today i am going to spend formatting book for jeff w. i've got a good start on first chapter. i hope to go to the Baba center around the 20th for a few days and can give him some page proofs.

also finished "beta" of around 100 poems which i will xerox today and begin handing out to folks for any thoughts or comments.

1.5.3

up early this am, busy busy busy. i'm going to friends meeting - quaker - at 10, missed it last week due to skewed blood sugar situation.

continue to feel that by far the majority of world citizens, and more to the point USA citizens, feel very uncomfortable about gneralissimo bush. at present this is a slow - too slow - swell on the ocean of public opinion. i think it results from the invisible coup-d'etat that has taken place, the corporate oligarchy running things from a teflon bubble. the opposition should sieze the moment to clarify what is happening. recapture the language.

for instance anytime a democrat points out the econmic inequalities running rampant, bush and friends including rush simply reply with one code word:"class warfare". the opposition needs to translate the meaning for us hoi poloi - it means the very wealthy are differant than you and i - me anyway - with proprietary agenda and there are other agendas that need not to be ignored by ivalidating them with that facile phrase.

1.4.3

fixed FTP glitch, picture below is what i painted last fall, yesterday's pic is same image after FTP suddenly lost ability to transfer binary files.

talked to some friends today who thought that their mood swings, random bad days, were the result of the bad vibrations and trouble in the collective mental sphere. i can correlate my varied and seemingly random states of mind with this only on a very general level, ie i felt good the morning of 9/11 - until it hit the fan that is.

1.3.3

the image above was one of those surprises. it wern't supposed to look like this.

1.2.3

sleep is not what it used to be, i either am experiencing advancing age - well of course i am - or the ragged vibrations of time-worlds unraveling - but last night i slept like humans used to and woke up feeling great. may it happen again and often. finished another MP3, working on a watercolor, and various other projects. i don't know if it's good or bad - i just do them.

here is a very long and interesting series of events, evolutions, and dates. it would take me a long time to puzzle over this, but i know i do not agree with all of it.

Timeline of knowledge-representation
imhoFAQ timeline of knowledge-representation

11.1.2

have a

12.31.2

there was more light yesterday than the day before. things are looking up.

of course the darkness has it�s own imperatives, but enough is enough.

i wonder how the first human consciousness felt when he or she realized that it was a �new� (another) year.

i imagine remorse and relief were part of it.

maybe indifference?

for me, what�s different about the new year is what i learned during the old one:

i don�t know anyone who gets a good night�s sleep anymore.

if people have souls, and i think they do, there are twice as many souls on earth today as when i was a teenager. (thanks to mike e. for that encouraging tidbit.)

if they do or don�t, there are still twice as many humans present.

philip k. dick called this age �the iron castle�. i call it, after ken wilber, �the age of the descended grid�. both phrases seem to have the same quality: caged.

if a person becomes more conscious, does he or she become less unconscious? or is the unconscious infinite and therefor endless and therefor never �less�?

tv the other night: rhythm, song and dance preceded language. louis mumford conjectured as much.

the image preceded conceptual thought.

in the human story, what does conceptual thought precede?

does the universe include dead-ends?

if there is a spirit of creation it is prior to and the basis of human experience. does it talk to us? can we talk to it?

is it accurate to refer to this world as �the vale of tears�? or is it a secular sin to think so negatively? (power of positive thinking). or is it that way so we can contribute to �soul-making�? (keats and james hillman).

everyone i run across these days, admittedly a skewed sample, seems to feel the power of �that�s all folks.�

kali yuga indeed.

so the only reason i look forward to the new year is that the old one is over. i hope and pray.

12.29.2

another wierd end to another wierd year. woke up this morning intending to go to friends meeting at 10, but blood sugar was 496. stayed in 400s till around noon when i finaly changed the old infusion set which looked ok. successfully began to lower BG. meanwhile i'm feeling muzzy, fuzzy, nauseous, and sick.

did not quite phone 911, but came close.

later the reitzals and elvins dropped by unexpectedly and i had a short but very pleasant visit. lots to guess about the coming year. i think i'll start a cyber-pool as to when what happens happens during 2003, and when it doesn't.

12.27.5

today the plan is to - again - stay at home. take it easy. be a blur. stress reduction.

started an oil portrait last night that didn't even come close and now looks like the underpainting of the mexican dust bowl. i'm going to add a watercolor today and see what happens if i work on both at once.

with a little luck i'll start loading new site. talk to a bird. finish final edit of poetry book to be. dance. pick up photo prints i took somewhere. the mundane can save us all.

12.26.2

i now have 448 Meg of memory. next a big fast firewire hard drive, for which i'll also need firewire/usb pci card. the usb is to hook up a digital camera.

i woke up today with the best of intentions, but had to finish a complicated audio piece, so i could blow away all of the digital audio parts and reclaim 350 meg memory.

i accomplished this task around 7 tonight.

i don't take this as a good sign. but maybe it is. ordinary life.

if you're interested in looking at or contributing anti-war (don't you just hate that name?) advertising scripts, take a look:

ActionForum

Here's an ad, in RealAudio format (a 178K download), that will be playing in january i think. i don't think it gets to the heart of the matter.

and last:

"It would be interesting to see if there's a correlation between the meteoric rise of blogging, the practice of keeping a frequently-updated online journal, and the rise of unemployment in Silicon Valley and other tech corridors."

from www.washingtonpost.com.

12.25.2

well i'm not running and i'm not hiding but it's not christmas anymore. i guess cause it's the day after in 30 minutes.

no resolutions - i already (didn't) do them.

i guess i guess that i will pay more attention to focus in the next year, or maybe focus on attention more.

That's if nothing comes up to distract me, like the world and stuff.

which world? why, all of them. so far.

and while we're on the subject i insist you go to ken nordeen wordjazz site. listen to first archived radio program. in my opinion he's right up there with picasso and dylan.

12.23.2

for those of you not on the mailing list:

12.22.2

here is the solution to the cryptogram my aunt patricia did while i was in arizona:

"just be glad you're not getting the government you're paying for."
-will rogers

a thought for the day. any day.

12.21.2

beautiful light out, brisk. i could live in this weather for the rest of my life - but hope i don't.

and i haven't even been out in it yet.

still straightening out email. i hope i got what you sent.

for those of you wondering how to communicate with the over-world, or if it is even possible, this might be worth a try.

12.19.2

beautiful day visitng my friend sam outside marion. cleared my head a little.

cyber-deck status: changeable. today i cannot reply to email. i did fix blog archive link. also wrestling with stylewriter II problem, will not print justified text from quark. will from word.

gonna step back and taker easy.

12.18.2

still connecting the dots on my cyber-deck, uh, i mean mac. and this site. i started it a year or two ago to see what would happen, or more specifically to see what it might turn into. so far i'm still wondering.

went to friends meeting last sunday. i like the group silence, but it looks like to really be a member you would have to attend endless meetings. and i'm allergic to endless meetings. nonetheless it is somehow comforting to know there is still social activism happening.

years ago i gave neuromancer by william gibson to my son eli. he recently read it and i took it - light weight paperback - on recent journey and reread it.

i remembered 2 things: 1) the girl with the fingernails that extend into razors (how could you forget?); and 2) a sentence about the place where the corporate intersects with the street. something i did not remember is that for a book with such a sprawling canvas, so many scenes and places, the government is not mentioned once. no politics. too much important stuff going on. with the current disconnect between the government and the governed, this might foreshadow the near future. my aunt patricia did a cryptogram in arizona that relates to this which i'll post when i find it.

12.17.2

busy day doing nothing. well, maybe i did somethings necessary to the mundane - in the best sense of the word. still hooking up all the contraptions that make this site work. laundry. editing. library. bank. drug store.

an encouraging note of interest: at recent family reunion in tuscon, there were about 100 family members i think plus friends etc. now without going into particulars i think it would be fair to say that most of these folks are hardcore western republicans. of course we are all older and slower and less fiery in opinions, but i still find it interesting that even though we avoided political discussion, just about all of them were very much bothered by bush and his pet war. nobody liked it. maybe a heavy-weight or two, but the concensus seemed to be "say whaaaat?"

even more wierd is that nobody seemed to know anyone that voted for him. or admitted that they had.

reinforces my theory that there has been a coup d'etat in washington dc but no one knows because it's a secret.

12.17.2

my state of mind. and i think the state of mind of that unholy abstraction, joe public:

12.17.2

progress. just escaped arizona library by techno-wizardry. and i think i can now post to this page. so this is a

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