Tuesday, June 29, 2010

today. well... think battery; starter etc are all ok. that's the short story. had to postpone meeting w/ marylin about pump etc, i'm going to pick up every stitch... you know forms, papers, phone calls... the stage that probably drove you crazy.  that gives me the next day to pick things off of the floor, find my keys, and in general get with it.

but i'm still stove up.

Sunday, June 27, 2010

today would be a good day to 1) find out why car starter quit; and 2) get insulin pump going. but hotter than hell and i'm still stove up so we'll see.

Saturday, June 26, 2010

picture i took before falling thru boulder world.

i'm feeling the soft breezes of approaching debacle, end of the world as we thought we knew it. identities, affiliations, professions, all slipping down steep slope. there is one meme floating around that goes something like this: the powers that be, whatever that means (nation states? trilateral commission?  walmart?) are letting this play out to reduce population. this thought gives whoever they think they are too much credit. although comforting in a perverse way to think there is soeme control somewhere, i don't feel that way. remember the invisible hand of the free market? if it exists it's drawing crazy patterns on your sheets.

Friday, June 25, 2010

took an easy hike off the parkway yesterday with richard and shamus. to get out of the heat. didn't quite get out of it. the flora or fauna or biomass seemed more thick but maybe it was the temperature. i lost my footing and took a terrible fall, boulders and branches. passed on ER when we got back and spent a very uncomfortable night. went to doc's today and no broken bones, one sort of nasty cut. my profound thanks to richard who kepy his head and got me back. shamus helped to (he's a dog). two or three days of rest are in order, but i have to get new insulin pump up and running. if it doesn't happen i''l do it later.

Wednesday, June 23, 2010

too hot. staying indoors. got insulin pump today. hope to be using it before long. it's too hot. i have a plan. i continue to find notebooks full of line drawings, word salads and such. they are going to go onto DVD as my friend jimbo is moving towards doing. end notes. way too hot.

Mystery glitch? Blame it on the sun - space - 23 June 2010 - New Scientist: "Although it would take a truly massive space storm to cause a catastrophe, it is becoming clear that even modest solar activity poses a threat in our technology-dependent world. It makes railway signals go haywire and rusts oil pipelines to the point that they may leak, not to mention wearing down key components in power grids, which could drive up the cost of electricity."

2 years ago friend minor was pointing this out. today, humans who tend to think "this" is "always" (includes most of us) are in for some big surprises.

Tuesday, June 22, 2010

backyard friend. i think he's got PTSD.

Monday, June 21, 2010

backyard sky 30 minutes ago.

nowdays i read books when i read them and not necessarily from beginning to end. stumbled across this paragraph yesterday:

"i'm not worried that antidepressants will turn us into mind-numbed, smiley-faced zombies. the drugs are not that effective, at least not yet. but i do think we need to pay attention to our feelings of demoralization. Pessimism can be an ally at a time of crisis, and i think we're living in one right now. regardless of whether or not the drugs work, to call pessimism the symptom of an illness and then turn our discontents over to the medical industry is to surrender the most important portion of our autonomy: the ability to look around and say, as Job might have said, 'this is outrageous. something must be done.'"
from manufacturing depression by gary greenberg

Sunday, June 20, 2010

the march of civilization. a week or so up around craggy. been puttering, feels pretty good after some enforced downtime recently think i have this week to put my houses in order. new insulin pump may arrive wed. hopefull by the end of the week i'll be up and running.

Friday, June 18, 2010

three strong ladys; my grandaughter lily on left, natalie in middle and melissa their mom on the right.

getting emails indicating my current malaise is showing. if i liked to watch tv and sleep i could say i feel fine. it's just that i like or am obsessed by doing, and it's pretty slow lately.

i wonder if fingerpaints might help. digging in the dirt. bubbles. talking to the night.

Monday, June 7, 2010

haven't been myself lately. worse, i don't know who has.

Wednesday, June 2, 2010

i am so confused, ill, out-of-sorts, tired of doctors, weary of life, rattled, skewed, so i made this to signify: nothing.

which is of course an integral part of something.

the something that occurs.

eternity occurs. now.